dead in the fucking snow

i hate
walking through the woods
and seeing your footprints
knowing
that i missed you

FIGHT TIL YOU DIE, its all we can do really.

haunted haus

haunted?
every blank space
is occupied by you
there with me
but not

this makes me the ghost

SIX ORGANS OF ADMITTANCE

EIGHTH COGNITION/ALL YOU'VE LEFT

BESTIARY OF LOST LOVES PT. 1

The JAVAN TIGER became extinct some time in the 1980s from over hunting. How many thousands of years was it there? Now it is not.





Let us remember what we have lost.

the gradual end of nature

when one studies the history of ecology
one comes to the conclusion that progressively
we see less and less of what was once seen
of the wild
each generation sees fewer birds than the last
hears fewer songs in the forest
sees fewer flowers
hears fewer less intense song
and buzz and insect din

each generation is ignorant of the intensity
experienced by the last one
so that the smallest victories
feel monumental
yet they cannot know what once was
because they have no way to
they havent asked
and so each generation lowers their expectations
unknowingly
of what life in the wild might be
the intensity of song
and color and profusion

it is only by reading the naturalist
experience
of the past
that they could come to know
but the great sadness of such knowledge
keeps us from even trying

to know how the sound of and
eastern forest at dawn
would have deafened you
and the flocks of birds
would have blackened the sky
to make you tremble

..........


i wonder
if men love now as they did
in such lost times?
would it destroy you to know
such a loss
so much that you could not bear to live?
has love
over time become less
beautiful and intense?
am i even capable now...
is all of this now artifice?
as in the past is was
perhaps vast and natural and
the expanse of it would have made you tremble
just to be in its vicinity?
is the love i feel
the love i have poured onto boys
the love i sponge from bucket on your skin...
a paltry pitiable thing?
compared to antediluvian rights
of love
the love men felt for each other
then?
am i capable of that
as they were?

..........

if you knew what we had lost
would you be able to keep going?

..........



flocks of passenger pigeons once spread as far as one could see when they passed. they were quite possibly the most numerous vertebrate land animal on the planet. now, there are none, because of us.

once the flocks of millions had reached a critically low point, the females stopped brooding their eggs. you see, they needed enormous colonies to reproduce and feel safe from predators. once they had reached the low number, they stopped breeding in the wild, and that was the end. we had simply killed to many of them, and they gave up.

..........


JOY DIVISION - Transmission

..........

Cephalopodantism

IT'S NOT MY CUP OF TEA

you said
careful, tea is a delicate affair
one must be subtle
and gentle
and oh so careful
with the administration
of a cup of tea

oh no!, said i
you do not understand
tea
as i do
leave the stuff in the
steaming water

know the heat
and bitter flavor
of the tea
know that there is pain
and discomfort of the senses
in tea
that can be pleasure.
know tea
know it for everything that it is
in complete
feel everything that tea
can give

this
is how one should enjoy
a cup of tea

he nodded politely

he didnt invite me over for tea
again

fucking cunt

Andrew Bird

IMITOSIS



NERVOUS TIC MOTION OF THE HEAD TO THE LEFT



SOVAY

so um...did some one say? oh yeah ok. crushing gravity or something.

it all had
you that is
you had
had a crushing gravity to you

its all cliche anyways

i took everything i wanted to say
and
am not supposed to
and
wrote it on 64 pieces of paper
no it was 20
but
and burned them all

immediately after
deflating
god this feels empty right after

burned
how many
words is this going to take
and not really capture it?
hey
um

yeah
fuck art basically

i'm not supposed to say
so
this is what i can do
this

6 self portraits at the family reunion

1.


2.

3.

4.

5.

6.

some things

for which poetry are inadequate

your eyes
the sound of my father crying when i told him that my mother had died
lust, real unrequitable lust
first orgasms
the way the wet earth smelled that day
that day
the shade under a certain tree in a certain heat
your voice when..
grapes

MY HALLOWEEN COSTUMES THIS YEAR

In various sites and and situations, I wore the following costumes...

1. UNDERAGED BRENT CORRIGAN



2. THE ISLAND OF MAURITIUS



3. TERRORIST CAT



4. A BLACK HOLE



5. MOMS MABLEY

God's Mistakes pt. 1 - Tree Kangaroos

Yes, I meant that ironically. Did you even know there was such a thing as a Tree Kangaroo? Well there is, and they live in the northern tropical forests of Australia and on some of the islands of the Australasian Archipelago (places like Papua New Guinea). Our friends are a little ungainly.in the trees. If I were to show you one out of habitat, you might not be able to figure that this was an arboreal animal. However, despite our judgment of their grace, they are well adapted enough to make a life in the trees. This is one of those cases of an animal not ideally adapted to its niche (it could have better legs and feet and tail for a life in the trees), but making what it has work for the life it has come to. Clumsy and awkward and utterly adorable; they have come to manners and habits that get through their homes well enough to survive. This is one of the animals that often enters the debates about evolution, because... come on, if you were to design an animal for tree life, you'd have done a better job.

This one is for my friends that view themselves as broken people... people made incorrectly... people who don't really work (as if missing a few requisite parts). You are not broken clocks, my friends. You are Tree Kangaroos... forced to live a life in the trees with your hopping feet that no longer can manage the ground. Maybe people can't change, but they can figure a way to live in the trees with the parts they have.

You know who you are, and I love you all. xxx


GOODFELLOW'S TREE KANGAROO (Dendrolagus goodfellowi)












BENNETT'S TREE KANGAROO (Dendrolagus bennettianus)






LUMHOLTZ'S TREE KANGAROO (Dendrolagus lumholtzi)








GRIZZLED TREE KANGAROO (Dendrolagus inustus)



TENKILE or SCOTT'S TREE KANGAROO (Dendrolagus scottae)
Critically Endangered






DINGISO (Dendrolagus mbaiso)
Recently discovered by Western Science




MATSCHIE'S TREE KANGAROO (Dendrolagus matschiei)

a fruit for the crows to pluck

no matter how hard
you fuck me
it'll never
be
enough

................................

they called it an internet meme

Y'all Cats Be Rocking Y'all Shit

separate thought here

you said you like cats
that was
all i could think of was cats after that










mark the chinese lawyer
he didnt seem to know
sara silverman

LET'S NOT FORGET WHY WE'RE HERE

for ThomasMoronic

that's why they call them destroyers
you know
a boy like that
i think i'd do anything
he said
do you think they know?
and by the time they do
they don't
that boy
thats the kind
you write poems about