POEM THINGS I THOUGHT ABOUT SAYING TO YOUi hope you approve of the new me. i'm so much more now, can't you see that?
i hate you because you didn't love me.
i can't believe i changed my facebook settings because you might see them.
what happened to you? why aren't you attractive anymore? eh, i'd still fuck you just to check it off. done. next.
this isn't a very good poem.
i don't know if i want to admit to you how influential you were on my interests, or if i want to admit to myself that i became interested in those things because i thought it would make you love me or something. well here i am, regardless.
shit, is this complete lack of censoring the expression of what i'm feeling one of the things that drove you away form me.
drove away or pulled away or drifted away?
fuck.
this boy i like has a picture of his cat with a dead dove in its mouth on his blog, and i thought of you when i saw it. except the cat looks like its into it.
you fucked me up on other friendships.
people who stayed have to put up with my fear that they're not coming back. seriously fuck you.
i still wanna fuck boys that look like you did back then. i don't even realize it at first. strangely some of them are latin boys, but yeah a lot of them are asian. you know its like a general quality i guess. yeah, art fag types too.
shit, you probably won't even read this. or my facebook profile. i am such a masochistic fuck.
god, i hope you don't read this.
i think, if i were dying on the side of the road, you probably wouldn't even stop or look over or anything.
did i used to know him? nah!it doesn't matter anyways, that YOU i used to know is dead. i don't know this person. who am i even talking to?
yeah, he's dead.
i loved that kid.
poem another fucking poem for dennis cooperdennis
lately, i wanna bite people
i wanna bite faggots
i wanna bite pretty boys
i wanna make them bleed
and wreck their delicate asses
fucking break them
i think your influence is having a deleterious effect on me
or maybe its the weather
or maybe its the caffeine
or maybe its the boys who won't love me
fuck, i need some scotch